pregnancy

stones for

and postpartum

In this article, I will be speaking from personal experience and will be using the terms and pronouns I prefer for myself. This is in no way a form of disrespect towards he/she/they persons who are able to give birth. Thank you for understanding!

my story

pregnancy can be a beautiful and truly wonderful time filled with brand new experiences.

so I hear.

people neglect to tell you the bad sides of pregnancy before you get there and a lot of the time, you don’t hear about it until it’s happening to you. i’m partially convinced that they don’t tell us these things because most of us would decide not to deal with it! from the nausea and heartburn to the anxiety and insane hormones, it can be a wild ride. i’m not ashamed to say that I absolutely hated being pregnant, for me it was terrible and oddly enough, was kind of dehumanizing. i stopped working 7 months in because I had gotten so big so fast, my body wasn’t coping. high blood pressure, swelling and soreness became my new normal and with that, my state of mind went sour as well. i was anxious and dissociating constantly and was unable to really do much of anything for myself. and god forbid you’re part of the 2%-10% of pregnant women who develop gestational diabetes (and yes, I was unlucky enough to get that too. I had to give myself insulin shots twice a day for months.) i couldn’t even wrap my crystals because guess what? carpal tunnel is a symptom of pregnancy!!! it felt as though my only routine was watching netflix, making food, and going to the bathroom constantly. i definitely thought that growing a life was going to be magical, after all it would all be worth it in the end, right? well, turns out when you’re living in misery it can be extremely hard to see the bright side (no matter how many times people read you cliche lines like that one.) and all this is just the before part. once the baby is here you’re subjected to developing postpartum depression, anxiety or both. with most new mothers, you swell a lot in the first two weeks after birth. You’re subjected to a new kind of exhaustion, your body just went through the biggest trauma most people will physically experience and you’re still expected to get up every two-three hours to feed and your baby all while bleeding for weeks on end (for vaginal birth) or not being able to sit up on your own (for c-section births). and breastfeeding? it’s intense. It can be the most beautiful experience. some mothers like myself, couldn’t produce and in my case, I felt like I was failing my babies. I mean, I have boobs I should be able to feed my babies right? it’s an unfortunate fact of life that some people.. just can’t do it and that’s okay. and don’t even get me STARTED on the mom guilt!! no matter what you do someone is judging you. there will be days where you feel like you’re not enough for them, you’re not doing enough or you’re not a good enough mom. Those feelings, while valid because they’re yours, are WRONG. Your baby is safe, happy, and fed. you are more than enough for your babies.

after doing some research (a little late I might add), i found some stones to help ease my symptoms and calm my mind. after two pregnancies I can absolutely say these helped me.

amethyst

citrine